Journey

A long journey home..
Sitting on the back seat of pipi bike,
Many thoughts went through my mind..

I really really had got to start studying hard!!

How can i build a house for the one i love in future
If i don't study hard enough now?

And i really must work hard to lessen the load of my parents in future..
They worked really hard enough to let me and my brother lead a normal life, but in actual fact, we are actually poor.. But they hide those situation inside them.. and brought us up.. i am really grateful to them.. For life!

And as for love..
There is nth i can do,
and now its really not the appropriate time for it.
Although i really like you, infact alot!
But i know we all have our own commitment and i know u are very devoted and concentrated to ur studies..
And that's why i didnt bug u at all..

But if in future or in any point in time,
Fate allows,
I will never let you go.

I just hope the days will get better for everyone...
Ever since the day i got into poly,
I miss having a group of true friends talking crap or rotting ard...
I just dont understand why..
But i guess i cant always go the smooth way..

I am trying to cope with school work too
MAth is really killing me..
But i wont give up!

I am happy that i joined LEO club
Many true friends made.. well i hope they will last..
However, i am really disappointed in the introduction of some characters..
But there are bound to be..
It's obvious to see who are fighing for smth, who are just purely to serve..
I have seen it many time, when i was in charge of Hse Chairman during my reign in Tamp ITE..
many ppl tried to angkat me... so as to secure a slot in the committee.

But i can accept that in student council or any other genre of club!
But i cant accept it in clubs which are doing community services esp leo club!!

Doing community is by heart, and not by ur brain!
That defeats the purpose of serving the community...

sometime i just wish that there is someone who can really hear me pour out all my sorrow.. but it's hard:x

Oh and i am really really guilty to this one club called, CSCC. especially mine awesome com service team.. I am really sorry to leave u guys just like that..
some of u might hate me, some of u might not.. but one thing for sure,
I love u all, and we had some wonderful moments tgt:)
The reason i left is becos some of the seniors are really way too f up! hahahah
so no point:)
......

My brain's hurting in the mist of recalling stuff that i have forgotten..
I hope it wont worsen..
cos i am just only starting to find my smile back:)

Goodnight everyone
and to u:)

I just hope that there is a day where we can stroll at the park and have some hearty talk...or even catching a movie or stuff..